While thankfully the times that I have been so called “cranky” are few and far between, it always really bothers me to think of myself talking in a rude tone to a child.
While, yes, there are definitely moments when a firmer voice is needed with some students (like NO you may not cut his hair because just….NO), that is different from plain ol’ grouchy.
So here is another confession:
Teacher confession #4 – I apologize to my students when I have been grouchy.
Yep. I do. I refuse to just “shake off” a cranky moment and assume the child will forget about it later. I used to do that. Think “oh, today was rough, I barked a bit at Betty but she was driving me crazy!! Oh well… tomorrow will be better. I no longer think that way.
I was a child who didn’t shake things off too easily.
A Memory of Mine….
I remember one of my teachers snapping her fingers at me at circle time and barking “stop it!” in a harsh way because I was making an annoying sound. I remember getting sent to a separate area when I honestly didn’t know what I had really done.
Now, as a teacher today, I realize that she wasn’t mad me and probably was mostly frustrated at Billy who wouldn’t stop poking his neighbor and Lila who wouldn’t stop interrupting and Betty who was floor rolling all while the poor lady tried to do a lesson. But at the time, I was little and I was crushed, because I honestly hadn’t meant to bother her. I felt like she was mad at me.
I understand I am the exception and was a little more of a worrier than most. Lila or Betty (not real names) probably wouldn’t have thought twice about it and gone to the corner happily to roll on the floor over there, but to me it was a big deal. And guess what? There are students like me in my own classroom. A little quiet, maybe a little worried. I just do wish that she could have said “Alex, could you please stop making that sound?” instead of first snapping at me. I bet my students today would want that too.
She is a great lady and was a great teacher. I in no way hold onto memories of her badly – this is just a point to show that what we say and how we act really does matter to our students. Some more than others.
You probably know your kids – you probably know already which ones need a bit more of a “firm” tone and which ones would be absolutely horrified if they were corrected at all – am I right?
So….. Do I just say “sorry” to them if I am in the wrong?
I don’t want you to think I go around throwing “sorry’s” like confetti, because I certainly don’t (they need to be true and meaningful) and luckily I don’t need to (I am a nice teacher and I promise I am not the Grinch!) 🙂
But, yes, I do apologize to students. My students are very young so they need apologizing and social skills modeled to them frequently.
When they are grouchy with each other, I always have them talk it out and work on it, so I try to model the same thing as an adult.
What does it sound like?
I may pull them aside when there is a moment I regret and say “I noticed that I talked to you in a way that didn’t sound very nice. I am very sorry about that and next time I am going to speak kinder, ok?” Or, “I was feeling frustrated when you weren’t listening to me, but I am going to work on how I express that to you next time.” I do not talk “down” to them by using a small voice or small words just because they are young. I model a full apology.
I am usually always met with a smile and an “It’s ok teacher” followed by a hug.
Would I have been forgiven anyway without the apology? Yes. They are 5 and what I love most about them is how quick children are to forgive.
But, did it feel good to know that they had kindness modeled to them and were able to forgive in a kind way also? You bet!
So why should we as teachers apologize to students after moments of “crankiness”?
Because we expect them to! And because modeling behavior gets the point across much better than just telling ever will.